It’s so easy to judge with
invalid presuppositions. So last weekend I attended a 3 day church workshop,
and if anyone had shared that info with me I’d instantly have a very clear idea
of what it was all about. Yes, I’ve been on enough Christian and work related
events to determine that businesses use conference facilities; churches use
dedicated church buildings of varying quality and function. So my pic today is
of a sizable private property, sited immediately adjacent to an historic castle,
looking directly across the English Channel towards France. Quite idyllic. A
large room downstairs provides for a church office; but many other rooms were made
available for the weekend workshop. The view from the substantial 1st
floor balcony is amazing and I actually got lost wandering up and down
different staircases. A quite unique experience for me, and nothing like so
many church halls or industrial park warehouse facilities that churches use
nowadays. My home church recently bought and converted an office block opposite
the old music hall we use for Sunday meetings. City centre traffic provides
little competition to a beautiful seascape though.
Anyway, I still feel really
good after my time away. Enthusiastic and almost energetic, almost like my pre-illness
old self… until I attempt to do something. Yes my head feels good, but my body
just won’t co-operate. I have almost zero stamina which is really annoying.
This afternoon I set out to do long overdue hedge-cutting, and managed maybe 10
minutes before dizziness and heavy fatigue reared it’s ugly head. I’m so frustrated
with ill health. I just want to live normally without having to pace my every
activity. But to the outsider, I guess I just look completely normal. Apart
from the increasingly long hair that is. And Chronic Fatigue Syndrome is a life
changing condition for sure, but no way do I give up. I’m determined to live
normally, just not doing as much and a bit slower for now. So one day I hope to
return to running and badminton… still not sure about squash!
Well medical science says that
there is no cure for M.E., I can’t accept that. I want my life back. My future
may look bleak – I’ve lost my wife and my health – but I see things very
differently. A challenge for a season, that’s all. I really enjoyed Julia
Bradbury’s ‘Coast To Coast’ walk across England, on TV a few years ago. I’d
like to do that one day. Now there’s a challenge.
Exodus 15:26 ‘I am the Lord who
heals you.’ (NLT)
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