All good things come to an
end. Or do they? Well my holiday’s about to finish, as I need to return home
tomorrow. But that’s ok as it’s been the longest I’ve been away from home for a
number of years, and I’ve had a really good time. I was rather unsure about
making this trip, considering the obvious focus upon the anniversary of Jane’s
death. And I’ve very much been hoping that after a year of prioritising my
grief journey I might begin to move on which is a big ask for sure. So my photo
today was actually taken right at the beginning of my break, and it obviously
features a fishing boat. A working vessel in what for many is seen as a holiday
destination, though Deal is certainly not a tourist hotspot by any stretch of
the imagination! My point is that even though I’m certainly on holiday and
enjoying the relaxation, I primarily came here to meet with God; to step away
from my normal surroundings, and do business with the only one who can truly
mend my life again. And I reckon he’s doing a good job…
I suppose I ought to be
feeling lonely, as aside from brief conversations with my campsite neighbours,
the only other people I‘ve conversed
with, in Deal, have been the supervisors at the self-scan checkouts. I always
seem to break them. There have been lots of mobile calls though with mixed news
from back home. So my son was told last week that his work contract would
definitely end in about a month, then this week they’ve informed him they now
have funding until next February! But I do seem to remember having a few words
in prayer on the subject. And my eldest daughter also successfully interviewed
for a new job as well, so that’s all very good. I like good news. And so I
really don’t feel at all lonely, despite being alone for 12 days now, the Lord
truly is my close companion and he is changing my heart as I spend time with
him. It’s hard to put into words, but I guess I’d say that I just feel more
complete as a person. More than at any time in the past 12 months for sure.
Though still some way to go I’ve made progress and that’s good. And I don’t
want that to end either.
Psalm 16:8 ‘I know the Lord is
always with me’
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